Reid

Well another shitty weekend with the step child. I keep talking with my mom so I feel better but it keeps getting worse. Tonight though I told her about Reid being borderline ADHD and she said that's the problem. She said that's why he's so hyper and always wants so much attention. She also said I need to be more straight forward with him and tell him how he is making me feel. He is 9 and should know how this stuff works. I think I am going to go see a counselor every week and start getting some kind of activity I can do to take stress of me.

Ok well we just went outside and had a talk about it. I am going to try and get through this and be happy with him. I need to do it for the baby. I cannot keep being stressed out cause it's not good for the baby. I really hope that he does try and do something differant otherwise this is not going to work. I will tr and he better try. I am not taking anymore out of myself. This is not far to me and it's not something I should have to deal with. I feel like I am going to throw up right now after just talking about it. My head started hurting again and I think it is because I was telling him how I felt and trying to get an understanding and it didn't go anywhere to me. I think he just keeps defending him and making it all ok for them. But what about the baby and me? Were important to him but how important? Maybe he needs to realize that I am not putting up with this. I need to do something drastic. I will see how this goes and see how this situation is then. Maybe I can move back to Duluth or find my own apartment. I know my mom and Joe will come help me move. I could try and find some kind of housing in Duluth. Anyway is fine as long as the baby is ok. I really hope no of this stress does anything to it. I wish Richard could see all the things and all the ways this is effecting us, me and the baby. But he doesn't, he only thinks about Reid. What is ok and fair to Reid. But we'll see in a few weeks how everything is and what's changing.